really...(X-posted with myspace)

So I learned something new today, and honeslty I guess I could have gone with out knowing it...

I took on a new position a year ago, as most of you already knew...if not now you do...no need for congrats now its too late :)

Anyways, here I thought I was doing this great job, Yes we all make mistakes here and there, forget to cross the "t" dot the "i" simple stuff right WE ALL DO IT! Yes I dont get along with one of my co-workers the best but we get by she stays to herself I stay to mine. One of the main reasons she hates me is because...well really I dont know what I did to her but she just does. We are in different departments so no big deal I do my own thing. But other than her I get along with EVERYONE...or so I thought.

It came to my attention today that one of my co-workers...who I thought was my friend, I went wedding dress shopping with her for her wedding, we lived in the same apartment building for 2 years, we ALMOST lived together, I sit right next to her, her husband is sick with cancer and I made them some meals to freeze so they could spend more time together and not worry about cooking big meals...well it turns out that she complains about my work ALL THE TIME. Im sorry that hurts! If im doing something SO wrong that you have to complain about me all the time then why don't you say something to me. I've been working here for 7 years, are you telling me that after 7 years your going to and I quote the owner of the company "give the owner an earfull about my performance"and not say something to me? That really really hurt, it really makes me wonder about what everyone else here thinks about me being in this new position. Im sorry I didn't ask for this position I was asked to take it. I didnt apply, I didnt interview, i was asked by the higher ups to take it because I knew the position from previous times.

I can't not even begin to describe the actual hurt I feel right now. I try every day to do my job in a way that I think will be easy for everyone to understand, I paper trail my work so that things can be easily traced I do what I can to make my job easy and to find out that im doing it all wrong...yet no one explains to me HOW im doing it wrong. 7 years...and im not told how im doing something wrong? Is it how I look, how I talk, seriouly people how can someone hate me SO much to give someone an earfull on what im doing wrong but not say anything to me? Someone that I thought...was my friend?!

I rented out my first townhouse!!!

So a few weeks ago i took on the task of renting out my aunts townhouse in Buffalo, why I have no idea I just thought I had a little too much time on my hands I guess...what with working 2 jobs 7 days a week i must have felt bored...OR crazy one of the two!! So I started with the basics, I put the house on craigslist.com, citypages.com, startribune.com the pages I look at the most. I had so many people respond it was CRAZY!!! After I had a few people dwindled down I set a date to show people the townhouse. My aunt currently has a lady living there who stopped paying rent two months ago and is a pack-rat...I kid you not I personally helped her pack a bunch of her crap...with out her knowing of course because there was NO way this place was getting good ratings the way it looked!!! So on the day of the showing my aunt, her hubby and myself made our way to Buffalo to show the house to this guy and his parents (his mom responded to the ad) They LOVED it!!! The next day they wanted to come back and show it to his wife...who LOVED IT!!!! they have a little boy and another bebe on the way. PERFECT for them. Well we got an e-mail last night saying that they would take the house and want to know when they can sign the paperwork and get things settled. We set a move in date on April 1st...even thought they will be moving the week before hand since they have to get out of there apartment and what not but it works out great since Easter falls in there (its march 23rd this year...weird) that gives us time to clean and make it all pretty for the new renters!!! I finally did something that made a difference :) I helped out someone who knew nothing about the internet or how to rent out her place and i made it work!!! She now will have someone that WILL pay rent and someone who potentially will be purchasing the house in a year! GREAT!!! WOOHOO...now for the hard part...They want to know how much they owe me. Well I took this on thinking I was just doing them a favor, well in the long run it actually cost me a lot of time(placing ads, writing up agreements, and other documents)...not so much money i mean 3 trips to buffalo is gas and 1 add i had to pay for but it wasnt that much...but what do I tell them...NO CLUE...I dont want to sound mean by saying how much i feel im worth, and I dont want to make them mad either...SO what do I do....Something to ponder over the weekend...PLUS i think this was so much fun...who wants to put me to work next month!??!? Anyone wanting to move and rent out there place?!?!?!?!? Im free :) lol

Yay for Blogs!!

One day maybe i'll really get into blogging but for now i just wanted to set it up, I see some of my friends on here and unlike them I can't "blog". I could read and read and read other peoples work but words just don't come out of me like they do other people.

I think maybe once you start it becomes easier for the words just to come out. Hopefully that happens for me when i really need to get something off my chest so to speak :)